my son

There is so many things to say about my sweet little boy. man i love him so much he really changed my life when i got preganent so young. made me grow up but i love it. i went to court a couple days ago with his dad and his dad doesnt pay me child support and hardly takes him which upsets me. lately i have been dealing with tyler being mean hitting swearing and i have been watching my mouth i let him know it is wrong and i just keep trying to redirect him but when he goes to his dads house he comes home and he is worse then ever so it takes time to redirect him again. i also let his dad know you cant keep doing this to him where you see him for one or two days a week then not seeing him for a couple weeks and then pretty much coming and leaving his life there is no way my son deserves this. i just keep praying that my sons father wont keep doing him like this.
things are going ot get better even if i have to make them better and be both mommy and daddy like i have for the last 2 years

Last couple weeks

The last couple weeks i have been thinking about what i want to do with my life. well i started to work at walgreens in march and i was like this is a cool job where is this going to take me . well its now july and i am falling behind on my bills and feeling like man i never have any money to do anything grantit u dont need money to take your kids for a walk or go somewhere and spend time but it is something always nice to have. Everyone who knows me has known i am with a man who i have been pretty much taking care of because he isnt working well folks he has a job now i just need to make sure he keeps his job and not go and quit or lose it because then i am done. so anyways back to me walgreens was paying me enough i was busting my rear and working 70 some hours in two weeks and only got 400 dollars no no i cant just handle that my rent is more then half that feel me. so i was upset the day i got my check and i was like man i dont know what to do. so after work i had already put a application in at this other place quality inn and well that day i was feeling some love because i called and they said ma'am we would like to hire you when can you start. my heart was racing like really i got the job really. well today is july 9th i start tommrow which is july 10th. and with walgreens they havent put me on the schedule for the next 3 weeks and this is how i feel a girl has to do what a girl has to do. i will not suffer no more i will not let my kids be without. i am going to keep on showing not only myself but everyone i can do this on my own
well nite